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Dudes…

I KEEP GETTING DISTRACTED! This is not good at all… -.-

The MOH announced that school will still resume… -.-

I was telling the depressed souls around me, news is an everchanging thing. So it might still change. So for now, study hard, vote hard pray hard hard that things will just go well.

And something stupid, they reported that there won’t be assembly on the first day of school cause they don’t want everyone to be together on the same day. BUT AS IF THAT MAKE A DIFFERENCE… -.- Cause we are still going into the HALL as a COHORT to TAKE OUR MATH PAPER. AND LECTURES WILL STILL GO ON.

They think that the only time we can actually be together as a whole school is assembly sia. -.- Sounds so stupid. DUDES, we study in a HOMEROOM SYSTEM YO! We move around, we are practically in contact everyday.

Actually, if we think of it, it might not be safe at home also, those who live in HDB flats are highly concentrated. The first floor ppl sneeze up, the last floor ppl throw their germs infested tissue down we are kena already. SO! we should just throw everyone into the sea or something so that the whole world can be safe. HEH.

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

Yeah. Thinking a lot.

Past few days like mood abit bad. Maybe damn bad. Those around me better watch out for this weird ass person stomping her way around. That’s me. -.-

Sometimes, you just feel so lost in being yourself… You want this, yet the others want that and since you don’t want to be alone you want what the others want although that is not what you actually want and you end up deluding yourself that you are happy with it and you can do whatever you want some other day.

Or maybe you are unwilling and you say NO and all the others end up unhappy and you have to end up unhappy since the whole mood of the group is like bad.

So you weigh out these 2 situations and you find yourself agreeing that the first option is better. So just hide this unhappiness and forget it. The feeling will go away.

But in the very end, this unhappiness is accumulated and you seem to be lost in being yourself or not being a spoil market. I guess sacrifices have to be made in order for relationships to work out. If I do go around wanting my way all the time, I will end up being disliked by a lot of people and stuff.

So in a sense being considerate to others will mean being inconsiderate to youself yet it is actually being considerate since you will have a better life being liked by people?

I am abit confused by the thoughts in my mind now.

Maybe it was from reading my lit text, if I think too much about this kind of stuff, I will end up dead like some poets… -.- But I am feeling very angsty now. All thanks to the stupid racist comment.

When you are a kid, the images that revolve around you are unclear. Yet you have such great memories about childhood as all you remember are happy times. You do not feel extensively for people around you as you slowly grow up and learn about feelings and emotions. (That is probably why I pushed this poor girl down the slide when I was a kid, sorry dude) Yeap. Now, this kinda stuff won’t happen, cause you will just think of the pros and cons to a situation. Should I do this, should I not do this. Should I go with the crowd, should I speak up about what I feel. Sometimes you become more daring, only to be bitten and thus, you grow scared of the matter.

You shrink slowly as life grows on.
Irony…
As you grow up, you are shrinking…

Hurmm….

Thoughtful.

As I said, if we think so much about stuff, we will end up dead like some poet. SO, think happy thought ppl. HAPPY THOUGHTS!

Also, whatever it is, when in a dilema about life, and about your identity, just know that you are living in the way God wants you to can liao. Who cares about others. I am myself and I don’t care what others think of me.

Land before time: Let your heart guide you…

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

There was this picture of a cute baby smiling without teeth on my blog quite some time ago. Maybe around 2 years?

Then this FWEAK posted this comment for it, “This baby actually looks very ugly. I think Asians are Vicious and ugly.” WHAT THE POK!

NASTY PERSON SIA!

This kind of people are those kind in whom I want to throw eggs at and the reason why the world is at war. Discriminating those who are different and feeling like they are the most superior ppl of all.

FWEAK!

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

Got this email from evan of this 3 yr old little girl praying. She started off with 1/4 of the “Jesus loves me” song. Then went on to pray the Lord’s prayer.

… Jesus loves me
Yes! Jesus loves me,
For the Bible tells me so.

*Ok, now you pray. Our Father in heaven…*

Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done,
(muffled) on earth as in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
(muffled) Forgive us our sins
as we forgive those who sin against us.
(eh? where is this part?) Save us from the time of trial
and deliver us from evil.

For the kingdom, the power, and the glory are yours
now and for ever. Amen.

Yeah. DAMN CUTE LA I TELL YOU!!!

Makes me happy.

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

I know there was a lot of talk about Susan Boyle and stuff. I respect her a lot, but I didn’t think she was that good that she will win. Sure she is a nice person and has a great story for winning. But I liked Diversity A LOT LOT MORE! And I still love Susan Boyle for who she is.

LOVE LOVE LOVE DIVERSITY AND SOOOO HAPPY THAT THEY WON. THey totally deserved it can!

Having talent is one thing, working hard for it is really another. I know they might not be the best dancers, but they put in a lot of hard work into choreographing for the dance and practicing it to near perfection. I LOVE LOVE LOVE them!!!

This show is ultimately supposed to find an act that can perform in front of the queen at the royal variety performance, and I think they really nailed the word VARIETY.

WHOOT!!! DIVERSITY ALL THE WAYYY!!!!

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

HAHA! So GPish… -.- But I have really been thinking.

Those who know this will know what I am talking about la. Haha.

The choir is not about you. It’s about a group of people striving to do well to get what they want. But what are you doing? You seem to think that you are the choir and that you can make all the decisions for choir so much so that you do not have to ask them about their wishes and thoughts. YOU ARE REALLY SELFISH DO YOU KNOW THAT.

Like 3 years ago, where you cared nothing about what we thought and changed what ever you wanted to change on your own accord. Do you even know how tough it was to cope with YOUR changes? I really pity anyone who has to be under YOU. Cause I might have said this jokingly to others before, but for you I mean it seriously. You SUCK!

-.-

And I really pray for the day where God will let you see what mistake you have made or just change the person in charge.

I can’t believe you still have the guts to tell us that it is all for our own good. Is it not for your own good so that you can have the “best CCA” in this school? Since when have you thought for choir. As in really welfare of choir. Ask yourself who in this world changes (subject) 3 times in 4 years! ONLY YOU!

Cause you think the whole world revolves around you. Since the choir is yours you can do whatever you want with it.

One step at a time please. You want to take leaps just liddat. Continue to dream on man.

You will just make the choir members suffer.

-.-

Poor choir.

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

Yeah, feeling super feverish. Started from friday afternoon.
Reached home after lunching with dudes (zer, ph, jelly, jude, jy, edwin, jolyn) and slept like what I was planning to do. Woke up with a headache and feeling giddy so I went to take my temperature. FEVAHHHH…

Ate dinner, took panadol and went to sleep.

Woke up the next morning feeling better and was forced to go for SRP. -.- Felt damn horrible after SRP so went home to rest, who knows, FEVAHHHHH again. I did feel better at night as I took panadol again. But in the middle of the night,it came back again.

Today, felt okay in the morning and afternoon, towards evening, FEVAAAAHHHH again and I took panadol and now I am feeling better.

Vicious cycle…

And I don’t want to take mc tmr cause tmr is the soccer finals. Better be a good game if not my tolerence is like wasted.

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

JELLY IS SO DISGUSTING!!!

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

I blog like super rarely now… So I must tell myself to blog more.
VIWAWA HAS BEEN A MAJOR SOURCE OF DISTRACTION TO ME.
Sobs…

My recent craze for Danny GOKEYYYYY!!!!

Still think that he should have won. I love him a lot a lot and he will still be my number 1 ever though a lot of ppl keep saying that he capitalises on the fact about his dead wife.

DANNY ALL THE WAY!!!

Met up with Alynn and Carolyn (Saw this girl quite a lot of times thanks to choir) recently to realise that it’s been 1 yr plus since I left the sheltering walls of PL.

The longing feeling to be back in PL is long gone. Not to say that I don’t miss it anymore, it’s just different. Maybe cause my life is still filled with MJ and the friends in MJ now that I do not long to be back in PL. Just that I miss it once in a while, being in a pinafore and chilling with PL friends.

And now, as the year is coming to a close soon, I do realise that A levels is drawing near, but it is hard not to realise that this time with your MJ friends is coming to an end as well. Friends are for life though. But things will just seem different.

What’s more, you look at the new batch of J1s and you go (sian ji pua) cause time will not turn back anymore and you are now a j2. The angst that we had in sec 4 that is channelled to the rest of the levels are equally spread out to the 3 levels. We felt like we had the rights to be angry at them cause we are having Os. Now it’s worse don’t you think, cause now, there is only 1 group of ppl to be unhappy with and that is the J1s!!! Pardon our angst J1s, it’s a natural cycle.

I should not be procrastinating heh…

State of mind: Worried + sian

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

YEAP! MJ choir got GWH!!!

In cloud 9 I tell you. The moment when they announce it.
It was the moment of shock+disbelief+joy —> SCREAMMMM
Followed by thanks+gratitude+satisfaction+it’s over —–> CRYYYYY

Really a mix of emotions at that point of time, was crying+screaming+laughing at the same time so much so that I sounded like some weird person.

I never intended to go MJ
I never intended to join choir
and now, everything is just falling into place soooo much that I can do nothing but thank God for his greatness.

The moment where we won brought me to think back on how PL choir got gold for the first ever time in 2005. Right back when I was in sec 2. The moment the woman announced, Paya Lebar Methodist Girls’ School Choir, GOLD, I was really screaming and jumping and crying.

Never had I imagined that there would come a day where Gold with honours is achievable.

OMEGAAAA!!!

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui