ACHING

I know it has been a very long time since I last blogged. ANd I have not updated my pictures of OLOMOUC trip. But something just sparked off my thoughts to blog.

You make me feel like such a useless friend.

Maybe it is true. That I am not good as a friend. THat I am not good at consoling and everything.

I embrace that fact. And I will try to change. I will be available 24/7 from this day on.

STOP QUESTIONING ME! CAUSE I DON’T LIKE TO LISTEN TO QUESTIONS! I DON’T LIKE QUESTIONS THAT QUESTION MY FAITH! I DON’T LIKE BEING FACED WITH THIS KINDA STUFF!

Does everything have to be answered? What is Faith? Why do I have faith? Because I believe. Why do I believe then? STOP ASKING SUCH QUESTIONS!

I am holding on. I know that without you guys I would have been gone. I admit that part of the reason why I am still around is cause of my friends. Do I have to answer the question about my faith? Why don’t you become a scientist and go answer all the questions you have on this world? WHY NOT DO THAT?

Cause one thing is for sure. All the questions on this world cannot be answered fully. There can never be a PROMISE to something good. Why does this happen? How did it happen?

The idea that I am still around: I have to stop questioning and just believe. I don’t have to give thanks. I JUST NEED TO BELIEVE. Believe that everything is there for a reason. THINGS WILL WORK OUT IN THE END! Cause it has so far! I AM NOT DYING OR DEAD!

IF you tell yourself you are sick, you will be sick
IF you tell yourself you are tired, you will be tired
IF you tell yourself you are sad, you will be sad
IF you tell yourself you are dying, you will die

BELIEVE. A simple word. Yet is anyone able to put it in use?
Who truly understands the word believe?

I believe that I will have friends around me to tide through things
I believe that I will get promoted if I study hard
I believe that I will be happy. And I am.

Am I assuming too much? Am I being too, “Always look on the bright side”y?

Cause I dont really think so.

I know that I have not been a good friend. But I believe that I will change. I BELIEVE THAT 10 years down the road we will still stay in contact. I BELIEVE THAT we will be friends till the day we die. I BELIEVE that if we all put in our efforts, we will hang on.

I will try my best and believe.

For I have a faith of a mustard seed. Things might not happen the way I want it. But I know that there will be fruits in the end.

Cause if all of us have that faith, there is bound to be something blossoming in the end.

Always look on the bright side of life,
Xioahui

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